| Ugh. Thank God intern year is only a year. And thank god for flavored frozen yogurt and the office. I could say more, but I shouldn't. |
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| Hospitals to avoid: The Chicago VA during July and August, and then Northwestern Memorial for about the next 4 years. You've been warned. I have never second-guessed, quadruple-guessed, myself so much before. My decisions are affecting everyone now. Moving away from Oklahoma? Minus 50 points. 80 from the mother-in-law. The second we choose an apartment, something goes wrong and it's back to square one. We still don't have a place to live, and our best prospect at this point backs up to the EL. And that would be fine if it were just me, but now my decisions affect someone else, and that's when the guilt sets in. If he can't sleep at night, it's going to be my fault for choosing Chicago. Staying in Oklahoma would have been easy, but for that reason I think it would have been wrong. I need the sub-zero temperatures to snap me out my numb routine. I need the loud city to wake me up from sleep. I need to know that I (we) can survive this. |
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| To get qualified for a home loan, we need Sam to have a job. For Sam to get a Chicago public schools teaching job, we have to live in Chicago. The schools usually don't hire until late summer... But we have to be moved by mid-June. *%^@# |
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| So we're moving to Chicago in June. I know that in theory this is supposed to be a happy time, but something is bringin me down.... For some reason I'm more tense/miserable/worried about the future than I am happy and excited. Maybe I just don't want a real job or responsibility. Maybe I just need more than this. |
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| On Monday, I'll know IF i have a job. On Thursday, I'll know WHERE my job is. Based on my rank list, there's like a 88% chance that Sam will have to find a new job. Not to mention the new house we'll need, because commuting anywhere from 3 to 24 hours is a bitch. In the mean time, I guess I'll have to keep being obsessed with the Thunder and Netflix. Today, I fell asleep on my couch with my doxies, streaming a French film on Netflix, and I realized that I actually don't want limbo to end. Fun Fact: There is an Oklahoma congressman trying to change the text on our flag from OKLAHOMA to OKLAHOMA! At least our tax dollars are going to good use. |
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